Hello!

Today’s post is super random. More of a “Life” related post, not so much fashion. Unless you consider this black bra-top, black legging look to be edgy!

I wanted to write this post because I faced a fear recently, and afterwards I felt amazing!

Let me preface:

About two years ago, potentially even more.. my great friend Megan and I decided we would love to take up kick-boxing. Now, just looking at the two of us, we do NOT look like two bitches that would be able to throw down in a kick-boxing class. So naturally we went in super amped up.. we bought the gloves, the wraps.. and the first thing the instructor says to do was “Shadow Box” with yourself for the first two minutes of class.

You know that laugh.. like the laugh you have when you’re not supposed to be laughing but you are. OH MY GOD! Everyone was taking it so serious, like MMA shit. Shadow boxing is basically acting like you are boxing someone, but NOBODY IS THERE!

Okay so anyways after we got over the shadow boxing… we signed up, and went to a ton of classes. We fell in love with it! It completely kicks your ass, and its kind of amazing. It is an entire body work out, and I think that is why I love it. Growing up a dancer, I never had to work out because we danced so much! So naturally when you hang up competitive dance at 18, you now have to figure out how to stay in shape.

I am not a gym person. I have had multiple gym memberships, and let them all go to waste. I used to try everything at the gym. Going with a friend, going with Kevin.. watching Netflix while on the elliptical. But screw ALL of it! I have “gym A.D.D.” (I’m sure others would say I have A.D.D. just in general but, you get my point.)

You’re probably all wondering what point I am trying to get to in this post. Haha! Well, here is my point.

Any time I have ever gone to a gym to work out, it has been WITH someone. Megan and I would go to kick-boxing together, then we even did some regular gym workout classes together. It sort of softened the blow of any awkward moments, or worse… PARTNER work outs. I always knew I had someone with me to dull the awkwardness. Are any of you hearing me on this one? Or am I just a complete loser? (Don’t answer that.) My issue was that, I got engaged. HUGE issue right? No, what I am saying is that I felt this pressure to get in decent shape for my wedding. I really just wanted to gnaw on celery sticks, but I love food WAYYYY too much! This place right by my house opened up called Phantom Kickboxing , perfect right?

If you are wondering why I even quit going to Title Boxing Club with Megan, it was because it was 45 minutes away from our house. Then, the location we were at, moved even further away. I was not driving an hour away to work out.

Let me tell you something. The thought of having to go, and try a class at this place was so frightening for me. It’s weird isn’t it. I was so scared to go and try something new all on my own.. and I have NO IDEA WHYYYY! Do any of you have a weird fear like this?

So finally, I realized that kick-boxing was the only sort of workout that motivated me. It was 5 minutes from my house so I had no excuse not to make it in. They had classes in the morning, which worked GREAT with my schedule. I was out of excuses! I called, I had my name on a list for a trial class. There was kind of no turning back…

Fast forward to after the class. IT WAS SO FUN! The instructors were really cool, the environment was cozy but not weird. The best part was, the people in there with me.. reminded me so much of the kids I teach. Constant positivity, and cheering each other on. After class everyone was fist bumping and encouraging each other. This was so intriguing to me. AND I DIDN’T PASS AWAY FROM GOING IN THERE ALONE! There was partner work, there was a lot of unknown, and I survived it. I cannot say that I am able to move properly today but I definitely think I have found my niche workout. On top of that, I conquered a fear of taking a workout class alone. An idea that was debilitating for months!